Final projects guys, sorry, I probably won't be available for a while. TWO WEEKS LEFT OF FALL QUARTER HOWEVER. I GO HOME IN TWO WEEKS. I WILL BE MORE AVAILABLE THEN. I will be online, vaguely, but I'm not sure how much. I'll hop on then and there, probably.

*glomp flist*

-Kowareta

...To a different dorm room.

Glitch and her roommate C are moving into a new room and since it's a three person room I can move in along with them, provided I go down and make a room change request. But it's already been talked about to the assistant dean of students, so it should all be official. All I need to do is talk to the RDs.

It was an "emergency move" for Glitch and C because usually the office is closed, but after the list of things that were sent about the crazy roommate, they expedited the process. They're moving into a room a floor above their current one (which is a floor below mine.)

Also, I helped Glitch move and Crazy was writing a lovely e-mail about them that went something like this:

"...were going to Hell anyway, it's only unfortunate that they couldn't be more useful before their fall into the pit."

And later on...

"...you have to completely remove the soul from the body, which is difficult because most people tend not to want to die."

Eh heh heh heh...

So yeah.

I'm moving come Monday/Tuesday.

Now I'm off to read part of my English book.

-Kowareta

Went to deposit a check at the bank today and I found a black thong just lying on the sidewalk. After I depos--

Back up a moment. A thong. On the sidewalk. How does that even get there? Is it used? Or newly bought? What the hell?

Astonishingly enough, this is not the first time I've discovered some sort of under garment on the sidewalk. The other time was back up in Wisconsin and a pair of mens' underwear. It was frozen to the street. Heh.

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The two art studies I did for the second project in my 2D Design class. I didn't like the final so I didn't scan it in.

( Abstract Portrait AKA the Creepiest Things I've Ever Drawn )

My new art school approved education tells me that there are several things wrong with these pieces, but I don't feel like getting into that at the moment. I still feel they're better than the final. Though the final has better contrast. In any case, um, enjoy.

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Things worked on the past week:

-English paper
-2D Design project # 3 and the studies
-Drawing 1 still life and sketches
-Drawing 1 notes
-Yu-Gi-Oh! fanfiction/fanart
-Yu Yu Hakusho fanfiction (I will never leave my original fandom.)

-Kowareta

It's the days where I go out and buy a tie that I regret not actually knowing how to tie one. And apparently the diagrams on the Intarweb confuse me. Damn you smexy business men.

-Kowareta

Midterms this week. That's why I've been so scarce. I got three hours of sleep last night. Which isn't anything extraordinary any more since I've only been getting about four to five hours of sleep anyway, not always due to roommate reasons. I think they placed me on the loudest most obnoxious floor here. Why on earth are people compelled to slam doors and shout and scream at three in the morning? There's more too, but I'm not going through to explain it all.

Guess I have no right to complain though. I shouted "DIE!" at a piece of paper I'd made five stripes of charcoal on at around... maybe one o' clock when it fell off the wall (because I taped it up with drafting tape and drafting tape is purposefully not all that sticky, but it's the strongest tape I currently possessed.) Staring at a piece of paper and drawing it for over two hours is more stressful than I think most people imagine. And I had to do multiple drawings of it... and each drawing took more than an hour...

Finished my Drawing 1 Midterm portfolio, thankfully. Sprayed fixative on charcoal drawings and turned them in. One was really messy though, the charcoal was everywhere. I couldn't stop it and I was too tired to see clearly. I put the fixative on it and in the morning was like, "Well, fuck."

Took a shower. Charcoal didn't go all the way away. Need that GOOP! stuff thoth_moon told me about. Probably not going to get it though. I'm begining to become very tight with all my monies.

I sharpen pencils with x-acto blades now.

I have English at 2 today at the library, which I'm going to walk to despite the fact it's quite a few blocks away. I have 2D Design midterm tomorrow. Which reminds me of the project I have to due for next Thursday...

Was listening to the happy happy techno music on meh iPod to keep me going until it DIED on me. Now I have no bouncy music to keep me active.

I should get back to work. I think if I can't crash later today, I'll do it on Thursday, and hopefully get up in time for the Gender Bender Ball.

-Kowareta

Dear Bitchy Roommate,

Why on earth couldn't your friend take the blasted flat iron and do her hair for over two hours in her room instead of ours? I realize that you two were talking (at decimals higher than which can be ignored by my iPod) but seriously, what the fuck? Also, talking so goddamn loudly while I'm trying to focus on English homework makes Kowareta very angry and upset. She is now plotting your demise. She wishes you a good day and an even more satisfying death.

Also, don't give me weird looks for wearing my trench coat in our dorm room when you crank the temperature to levels so low Wisconsin's weather would be ashamed.

-Kowareta

The best thing about buying YGO cards today was...

( THIS CARD )

-Kowareta

Got my hair dyed and cut by meh asian cosplayer friend who's an Animation major. We're redying the hair tomorrow because it turned out weak. Am also going to an asian... tea... party... like thing tomorrow at two. And then the mall to pick up YuGiOh cards art materials. (Among other things I need, actually.)

Also got meh Yu-Gi-Oh! cards shipped to me today from parents. I literally have all of Yugi's cards and none of Kaiba's. Why, fate, why? Though Stephanie, the girl who did my hair, has almost all of Kaiba's cards. Am jealous. Ah, but she's letting me borrow a wig for super special awesome Kaiba cosplay action. Whoo. Got meh trench coat sent to me today too. ^__^

...YES I AM WEARING A LONG BLACK TRENCH COAT IN GEORGIA, WHAT DID YOU EXPECT? WHO DO YOU THINK I AM? DO YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE FUCKING WITH?

Rained hella lot lately. I like the fact that puddles stretch more than ten feet around here and you walk on the muddy medians and not the side walk because if you walked on the side walk you'd be ankle deep (or further) in water.

Also witnessed a crazy girl issue a genuine death threat to a girl who messed with her car. The lunch ladies were nervous dealing with the girl afterward.

Art school ish awesome.

-Kowareta

A guy in a chicken suit and roller skates just skated around my floor. He was with two girls in bee suits and a guy with a paper penis on his head and a girl with a paper vagina on hers. Huh.

Welcome to art school.

Edit:

Also, for the past few days I have been unable to completely wash off the charcoal and graphite from my hands. My hands will forever be stained black no matter how many showers I take or how many times I scrub them. Another requisite of going to an art school.

I'm currently working on a project due tomorrow to be critiqued. Blargh. It's sort of creepy looking. I'll scan and post later.

And midterms are next week. More fun. ^__^;;

-Kowareta

I now have internet on my computer thanks to the card adaptor Roni-cat (*superawesomeglomphug*) sent me. Whoo! Expect to see me more often now than usual. Though, I probably will be gone for extensive periods of time still, as most art projects seem to take 40+ hours to finish around here.

Also, Gay Lawyers Phoenix Wright is love. I'm playing it on the DS I borrowed from Glitch. Need to purchase both DS and Gay Lawyers Phoenix Wright for myself. She, in turn, is obsessed with the happy techno music I've mostly gotten from Olram and Meri. Caramelldansen in particular. We made a trade. Her gay lawers for my happy ipod.

Gay Lawyers.

~<3

-Kowareta

So Glitch's roommate went crazy.

Let me explain: Glitch's roommate has some sort of disability. Like Asperger's or Autism. I'm not trying to sound condescending and I don't think it makes us better than her, it's just that if she has something Glitch needs to know. From the moment you talk to the roommate, who you can tell right when you meet her that there's something going on with her. Her parents deny everything. Glitch asked, they said nothing, but her parents are kind of creepy too. Her dad's obsessed with this Canadian donuts and changed his license plate to read "timbits" which is playing with the word for whatever those Canadian donuts are called. He also bought a whole lot of their merchendise. Her mother is quiet and submissive. The girl herself, named Lisa, does not respond. Like, I thought I was pretty nonresponsive in middle school, oh no, Lisa... Lisa doesn't carry a conversation, can't communicate, does not express herself, doesn't make facial expressions. She has awkward motor skills and is night blind.

She also draws pretty badly (she tried to get weighted grades from the disability services because she has bad eyesight) and is obsessed with Invader Zim and her art is similiar to it. Not to mention most of it is pretty violent. (And she reads IZ fanfic all day, which is nothing I'm too worried about, but she doesn't leave her room unless to go to class or to eat. And the first few days she was here she didn't even go out to eat. Or eat anything she brought with her.) She hasn't made any friends. And I'm really not trying to describe the kind of person that's socially avoidant. I'm trying to describe the type of person who doesn't realize that there is a (if somewhat overrated) social aspect to daily life. Doesn't talk, doesn't respond, doesn't express, doesn't make hand gestures, doesn't make noise, obsesses over small details.

I was leaning on her bed post once when she came in and she slammed her bag down but didn't say or direct anything at me. I don't think she knows how to express things. I realize this may be part of the Aspergers'/Autism, we're pretty damn sure she has, but it's pretty damn extreme. We're also worried that her parents are the kind that just deny that she even has it, and hasn't even gotten her diagnosed yet.

She always walks around with a giant backpack unless she goes to the cafeteria to eat. <- This is important.

Now onto the real story: In Glitch's 2D Design class today, she had a breakdown. The teacher went over to her, told her she needed to work on her design a little, which was just a few scribbles, and she just put her head down on the table and did not respond. The teacher had to take her out of class and try to get her to talk. He was gone for more than forty-five minutes, the rest of class.

On the bus ride home she looked dead. At FYE she was leaning against a column. And not cool leaning like, "Oh, I'm just a bit tired, I'll rest here" kind of leaning. More like the "I'm about to be a walking zombie" leaning. Which is like, half bent over and with a hanging face.

Later that day, while Glitch and Kaitlyn (Glitch's other roommate) were in the room. She went into the bathroom with a flashlight and did not turn on the light for the bathroom. ALso, while Glitch was playing her DS and her sound was audible, she would grumble and turn in her bed. Which brings me to mention that directly after 2D she zombie-walked home, got into bed, and was still as stone with the covers pulled over her head. Glitch had to go over just to make sure she was breathing.

Later, when Glitch and I were hanging out, we heard from Kaitlyn that Lisa left around seven with her giant backpack. Which means that she did not go to the cafeteria. She does not, she does not, go anywhere except to class or the cafe. She doesn't have any friends, the cafe closes at eight (which is around the time we started looking for her and calling the RAs and Security), and she's night blind without the little flashlight she carries around with her. I've mentioned before she doesn't go to the cafeteria without her backpack, right? May I now also mention she has no night classes and no friends to go to either? We were worried she'd be wandering around the city, night blind, and without her flashlight, in a distressing state of mind and unaware of the things around her.

We (And by we, I mean Al, Kit, Juliana, Promyce, Kat, Catie, Glitch and I) go searching, we contact the RAs and Security...

After a while we have to walk Kat back to her dorm because it's all the way at O-House. On our way there, we see a SCAD van with Lisa getting out of it.

She can't walk. She's not injured. But she can't walk. She walked like an old lady before, and now she has to be navigated around corners through the help of other people. The Security officer was holding her backpack because she couldn't hold it herself. And she didn't, I noticed, have her little flashlight with her. So she was wandering the city, at night, when she can't see, without it.

Turns out she somehow got to an emergency room. Only... the college health thingy closes at five-ish and the nearest medical place isn't somewhere you can get without a car...

She can't handle pressure, (and I think her parents sheltered her in a way where she wasn't bothered by much), she can't socialize, she can't... react or express... she can't problem solve, she can't deal with stress...

But the thing is... when we saw her getting out of that van... shuffling, old woman zombie style, we asked, "Are you alright."

No response. She just looked forward and she looked... for someone who doesn't have the slightest imprint of social skills or expression... pissed.

Glitch got slightly scared and so I told her she could stay in my room and share my bed. And she said that if Kaitlyn wasn't staying in their room, then she was going to definitely take me up on that. Kaitlyn is staying, so Glitch is staying, but right now Lisa is just sitting straight up in bed, mouth agape, not responding to anything.

Sun-Ha, the RA of Glitch's floor, tried getting her to talk for over an hour. Not a word.

I don't think that her being this way is anything that's her fault or that she could help, it's just, it would be nice to know what she has and how we can deal with it, and so on. It's a bit concerning.

Um. So. College friend crazy roommate fun time.

In other, not so exciting news, I went to York Hall for the first time today to have my academic advisement meeting, which was boring, and I got lost along the way so I was luckily only five minutes late.

Glitch drew a pattern on my leg and now it looks like I have a green tattoo.

Got stalked again today. Am taking stalker out tomorrow to celebrate her birthday. She's also apparently made friends with the drinking and druggie anime fans. Um.

And for some strange unknown reason, I have Internet on the computer I brought from home, which hasn't been able to get wireless Internet since I've been here. Why today? Why now? It's pretty awesome.

I only had four hours of sleeps todays. Yays for loud, obnoxious roommates and crazy art homework.

-Kowareta

Unexpectedly found a job today at a Halloween store. Why is it that when I wasn't looking for a job, one decided to jump into my lap? After some decisions are made and information given, I will probably be painting faces on little hellspawn for two weeks. Go me.

Went to mall today despite fever and cold. Screwed some rules.

Stephanie (as Mokuba): *clings to my arm* Big Brother, buy me a pony.
Kowareta (as Kaiba): "Ponies are too cheap for me to buy."
Stephanie: "Can I have some candy, big brother?"
Kowareta: "No."
Stephanie: "That's okay, I had some pixie sticks already."
Kowareta: "Spit it out. Wheeler gave them to you, didn't he? You can't eat things that came from a mutt."
Stephanie: "Big Brother, can you buy me a car? Or an art set? Or a dragon helicoptor?"
Kowareta: "Dragon? Of course. Everything needs more dragons."
Stephanie: "Big Brother, I love you. You're the bestest brother ever"
Kowareta: "'Kay, thanks."

Kowareta: *staring at a door until someone else opens it* "I'm too rich to open doors for myself."

We are, of course, ignoring all the jokes about dragons and pants at the moment. 'Kay, thanks.

Medicine + sleeping time. Yays.

-Kowareta

Totally just realized I need sandpaper for my 2D Design project.

Also realized today I have five completely different erasers for five completely different tasks, and three sets of tape for completely different things. The same goes for graphite and charcoal pencils. Actually... that goes for a lot of my supplies...

Went to the Queers and Allies meeting today and was impressed that it was so much better than the GSA back home. We rock. Met awesome people. Gay, straight, bi, transsexual, genderqueer. Hee hee hee.

Goddamn. I should be printing out patterns for my 2D class instead of goofing off here. Hmm... but I guess I don't really need them until two 'o clock tomorrow...

Oh yeah, when I walked to the computer lab it was just beginning to rain. I hope it's not when I go back.

And I'm reminded of the fact that I've taken to not wearing my shoes when I go to the SCAD Cafe, or other people's rooms inside my dorm. I got a blister on my foot a while ago and it hurt a whole lot less to walk around in just my knee socks. Ahah, yes, the Georgia weather has yet to stop me from wearing them. Take that, shiny burning ball of heat-creating, light-creating gas.

In my art trade with Glitch, we're focusing on Yu-Gi-Oh!. She requested Bakura, and I requested Seto Kaiba. Go go go art trades. Actually, I should get to work on that too. Will do once I finish with computer lab.

Which is right now.

-Kowareta

I'm moving to Georgia tomorrow and moving into the college dorms the day after that. I don't know the next time I'll have Internet, so consider this good bye for now. I love you all.

*glomphugs flist*

^__^ ~<3

-Kowareta

And this is why I love Jyoshi Kousei.

Remember kids, read right to left.

( Feel Free To Grope This LJ-Cut )

-Kowareta

Stolified from Kura.

→ Pick your birth month.
→ Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
→ Bold the five-ten that best apply to you.
→ Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut.



JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.



( The rest is your job )

I'm less serious than I used to be and I think that's a good change, but I still believe it's a large part of my personality.

-Kowareta

I'm going to the doctor tomorrow for another check up so I have to get my A1C blood test done before I go so they can submit results for my doc to see when I go in. I feel ambivalent. I hope I maintained the 8.1 I had last time, or at least got it lowered. I was really surprised it was even as good as it was last time as I had maintained 10+ for nearly all of high school. Now that it's been down, I sort of want to keep it that way.

Going off to have the blood test soon. Maybe they won't have to draw blood from my hand this time.

This'll actually be the first time I've gotten it done before I actually go to see the doctor. Heh heh.

-Kowareta

P.S. Diabetes, I still hate you.

Found this on Sombra's journal (she doesn't update anymore) and decided to post it here since I love satire so much:

10 Reasons why gay marriages are wrong:

1. Being gay is not natural. And as you know Americans have always rejected unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.

2. Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3. Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because, as you know, a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

4. Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5. Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed. The sanctity of Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6. Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7. Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

8. Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9. Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10. Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social
norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.

-Kowareta

Mmmn. I threw a Welcome Back Olram/Sombra/Tia/See You the Hell Later, Roni-cat party yesterday. I'm still slightly confused about why Meri gave me a card that reads "Congrats" on it, but it came with something Hiei-ish, so who am I to question?

Nekomancer randomly appeared the day of before because she heard about it. And it was wonderful to see her again - even if disaster and calamities ensued... like usual. She gave me a pen on it with my real name, only without the 'h' in it, because evidently my particular spelling is hard to find.

Tia brought her laptop o' porn and kept spraying me with a spray bottle, so I attacked her, which, in the photographs, looks more like a lesbian experience than anything else. Whoo. Go me. Tia also brought licorice and strawberry marshmallows.

Olram came and I gave her my Yu-Gi-Oh! House of Adhesive Tape card. Because something that silly definitely speaks of Olram's Great Awesomeness.

Sombra brought her kick ass self as well, and kept up with the snarky comments.

Roni-cat came... and left. It was very sad. But he got to see meh kitties, and I think that made him happy. He also got molested by Nekomancer. I'm pretty sure that didn't make him happy. Eh heh...

Meri was cute and adorable! She just came from a wedding and brought cookies.

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Kowareta: "Nekomancer, are you going to take this tupperware home? Nekomancer? Hello? Your attention? Okay, fine, I'm going to start taking off my clothes until I have your attention." *starts to take off jacket*

Nekomancer: *rapt attention* "What!?"

Someone: "That got her attention pretty fast."

Kowareta: "Okay, good. I have your attention. Are you taking this tupperware home? Because I don't want it."

Nekomancer: *appears to deliberate*

Kowareta: "I'll put my jacket back on."

Nekomancer: "I'll take it home!"

(I took all her stuff and put it in the backpack she brought just to make sure she did take it home, along with the yaoi manga of hers I've been meaning to return. Her possessions are like sand. They get everywhere and there's absolutely no way to completely return all of it to her in any way, shape, or form.)

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Had a graduation party for me today. Relatives came over. It was alright. It would have been better if my cousin wasn't with them. She calls my friends and I freaks (which usually I take as a compliment, but from her it's slightly more agitating) and calls everything she thinks is stupid "gay."

I got some towels and stuff as presents. It was pretty neat. I can't wait to go to college now.

When some people left I took a nap. When I woke up I did some house-related clean-up.

My aunt says I can come over next weekend and dye my hair purple. She has a friend that knows how to do it well. If I can take and post pictures, I will.

-Kowareta

Posted a new fic.

Title: Heartless
Author: Kowareta (gosh wow, me again, huh? Who'd of thought I'd post a link to one of my fics in my own journal?)
Pairing: None.
Summary: [One-shot] [Yukina-centric] She didn’t hate him and she didn’t cry because somewhere between it all, in that haunting hateless look, were the words: “You cannot stop what I become as you did not stop what I became.”
Link: Because Yukina deserves more love.

What? You mean there are actually REAL female canon characters in my fandom? NO WAI


Got tired of all the Wimpy!Yukina fics.

⌐__⌐;; I need to update fics more often.

-Kowareta